“You’ve come a long way, baby.” That was a popular slogan for women’s cigarettes when I was growing up in the 70’s, but today, it has a different meaning for me. It is the phrase that comes to mind as I stand at your center, and marvel at the changes since we first met. Now, you look and feel the way that I always knew you could, the way I imagined you in my mind. All the injustices and mistakes of the past have been repaired, replaced and renovated.
I’ve always believed that our homes are an external reflection of our internal lives, and that is what makes this moment even more special. As I see all the healing that you’ve received, I know that the same healing has occurred in my own inner life as well. When we first met, you were a hot mess, but I overlooked it all because you were my escape. I was ready to put down roots and escape the tyranny of apartment rentals. When I walked into your bright yellow living room, I knew I’d found a piece of myself, and I also knew I’d be painting you again, and again and again.
These past four years, we’ve shifted and changed together. I’ve turned your ugly sidewalks into garden-flanked pathways, and I’ve turned your barren backyard into wonderland of growth. Fruit and veggies have been harvested, wildflowers have exploded and re-seeded, and Mother Nature has been allowed to do her magic. In return, you’ve helped me let go of outdated and expired thoughts, habits, beliefs and loves.
I want to thank you for all of your gifts, and for the freedom to start anew. I am ready for our time together to end. I will always love you, but I have new adventures to create and new challenges to conquer. I’ve known all along that a part of me isn’t done yet. That part is being reawakened by an ancient, gypsy-like curiosity. That part is calling me home, to the mountains of my birth.
I’ve healed you, and you’ve healed me. After all the shifts and changes, this home is one that invites love, nurturing, stability and safety, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Thank you for your gifts of growth, healing and renewal. Thank you for being exactly what I needed, when I needed it, so that I could heal the little, lost pieces of my soul. I lovingly release you, and I ask that you do the same for me. The Divine in me bows to the Divine in you; Namaste my friend.